Al que ingrato me deja, busco amante

Inundación castálida, 1689

Al que ingrato me deja, busco amante;al que amante me sigue, dejo ingrata;constante adoro a quien mi amor maltrata,maltrato a quien mi amor busca constante.

Al que trato de amor, hallo diamante,y soy diamante al que de amor me trata,triunfante quiero ver al que me matay mato al que me quiere ver triunfante.

Si a éste pago, padece mi deseo;si ruego a aquél, mi pundonor enojo;de entrambos modos infeliz me veo.

Pero yo, por mejor partido, escojo;de quien no quiero, ser violento empleo;que, de quien no me quiere, vil despojo.

The complete sonnet as transcribed on Spanish Wikisource, from the Inundación castálida (1689). No emendation was made.

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About the poem

In fourteen lines Sor Juana dissects a trap of the heart: she seeks the one who ungratefully leaves her and leaves the one who lovingly seeks her; she adores the one who mistreats her love and mistreats the one who adores it. Desire always runs to where it is not wanted.

The second quatrain takes it to the limit: the one who treats her well she finds a diamond — hard, cold — and she turns to diamond for the one who treats her badly. In the tercets she chooses, with a lucidity rare for her time, to be dragged by neither: she would rather «give her own will trouble» than surrender it. It is one of the freest minds of the baroque thinking itself through.

The verse is kept in Spanish. Translating it in passing would replace the work with a paraphrase of it.