Soneto I

Sonetos, 1543

Cuando me paro a contemplar mi estadoy a ver los pasos por do me ha traído,hallo, según por do anduve perdido,que a mayor mal pudiera haber llegado.Mas cuando del camino estó olvidado,a tanto mal no sé por do he venido;sé que me acabo, y más he yo sentidover acabar comigo mi cuidado.Yo acabaré, que me entregué sin artea quien sabrá perderme y acabarme,si ella quisiere, y aun sabrá querello;que pues mi voluntad puede matarme,la suya, que no es tanto de mi parte,pudiendo, ¿qué hará sino hacello?

From his Sonetos (published 1543), via the Spanish Wikisource transcription.

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About the poem

«When I pause to contemplate my state» and look at the road that has brought me here, Garcilaso says, I find I might have come to a greater ill still. The sonnet is a reckoning of the soul: the poet looks back and sees himself lost, and yet grants that his harm could have been worse.

He knows he is ending, given over defenceless to one who will know how to undo him «if she so wishes». It is the first of his sonnets, and the essential Garcilaso is already whole: the lover's complaint turned inward, in the hendecasyllable he brought into Castilian from Italy.

The verse is kept in Spanish. Translating it in passing would replace the work with a paraphrase of it.